<TEI xmlns="http://www.tei-c.org/ns/1.0" xmlns:py="http://codespeak.net/lxml/objectify/pytype" py:pytype="TREE"><text xml:lang="eng"><body><div xml:lang="eng" type="translation" n="urn:cts:latinLit:phi1348.abo013.perseus-eng2"><div type="textpart" n="66" subtype="chapter"><p>To the extreme anxiety of mind which he now experienced, he had the mortification
					to find superadded the most poignant reproaches from all quarters. Those who
					were condemned to die, heaped upon him the most opprobrious language in his
					presence, or by hand-bills scattered in the senators' seats in the theatre.
					These produced different effects: sometimes he wished, out of shame, to have all
					smothered and concealed; at other times he would disregard what was said, and
					publish it himself. To this accumulation of scandal and open sarcasm, there is
					to be subjoined a letter from Artabanus, king of the Parthians, in which he
					upbraids him with his parricides, murders, cowardice, and lewdness, and advises
					him to satisfy the furious rage of his own people, which he had so justly
					excited, by putting an end to his life without delay.</p></div><div type="textpart" n="67" subtype="chapter"><p>At last, being quite weary with himself, he acknowledged his extreme misery, in a
					letter to the senate, which begun thus: "What to write to you, Conscript
					Fathers, or how to write, or what not to write at this time, may all the gods
					and goddesses pour upon my head a more terrible vengeance than that under which
					I feel myself daily sinking, if I can tell." Some are of opinion that he had a
					foreknowledge of those things, from his skill in the science of divination, and
					perceived long before what misery and infamy would at last come upon him; and
					that for this reason, at the beginning of his reign, he had absolutely refused
					the title of the " Father of his Country," and the proposal of the senate to
					swear to his acts; lest he should afterwards, to his greater shame, be found
					unequal to such extraordinary honours. This, indeed, may be justly inferred from
					the speeches which he made upon both those occasions; as when he says, " I shall
					ever be the same, and shall never change my conduct, so long as I retain my
					senses; but to avoid giving a bad precedent to posterity, the senate ought to
					beware of binding themselves to the acts of any person whatever, who might by
					some accident or other be induced to alter them." And again: " If ye should at
					any time entertain a jealousy of my conduct, and my entire affection for you,
					which heaven prevent by putting a period to my days, rather than I should live
					to see such an alteration in your opinion of me, the title of Father will add no
					honour to me, but be a reproach to you, for your rashness in conferring it upon
					me, or inconsistency in altering your opinion of me."</p></div></div></body></text></TEI>